Darrick

i just read through this mess and decided to start updating it again! wooohoo. although i'm assuming the only people who might see this are michelle and megan (and everyone knows those losers barely even count) since it is 2007 and lj is soooo 2004.

anyway this aim conversation with an ebud sums up my thoughts after reading my old entries...

typing reports: im reading my livejournal from 2004
Dorkin Off: ew
Dorkin Off: fag
typing reports: and i was so much happier back then
typing reports: haha
typing reports: its so depressing!
Dorkin Off: well yeah you were like 14
typing reports: man i dint have shit to worry about
Dorkin Off: what the hell do you have to worry about now
typing reports: work and school and getting a house
typing reports: well not worry but like...
typing reports: do
Dorkin Off: oh god
Dorkin Off: those are the lamest problems ever
typing reports: they're not problems!
typing reports: just responsibilities
typing reports: my entries are all "i watched kill bill 2 again today. school's going sweet"
Dorkin Off: well you shouldn't stress over that shit cuz you're like 16 now
typing reports: haha
typing reports: yeah
typing reports: back then i didnt give a shit about my social live either it seems
typing reports: i was happy sitting on my ass at home watching tv all day
Dorkin Off: lol
Dorkin Off: now you're a drunk
typing reports: basically
Dorkin Off: and your friends are faggot whores
typing reports: sigh
typing reports: example?
Dorkin Off: dunno, just making shit up


i did go to the fair today with steve. W0000000 FAIR! it was fun despite his bitching about feeling sick before even getting on spinny rides. MICHELLE COME BACK STEVE REFUSED TO GO ON THE SPINNY RIDE AND I MISS FAIR WITH YOU. next year we are hitting up that shit 2000 times in a row.

anyway we met up with allan, dawn and... some guy whose name i dont know there. he knew my brother pretty well i guess? awesome. but they weren't riding the rides so we had to ditch that mess. also saw megan and tony right before leaving. ps megan - we didnt see the raincoat penguin anywhere. not that it would have mattered if we did since you dont answer your phone >:[


overall things are going better than usual lately. i've been in a good mood more often. probably has to do with pretending that a certain someone doesn't exist. or at least trying to although i'd like to be able to fix things. i hate the dramatic bullshit that the current situation has been causing - although my friends have been good at not letting it get to them or at least hiding what's been going on from me. luckily i think i've just about successfully given up on fixing things myself since i finally realized there's nothing i can do if this person can't get over being mad at me. and i'm pretty bad at apologizing or even worse, trying to explain my stupidest actions. hopefully things will work out. if they dont at least im working on not caring as much about it.

on a less dramatic note i am starting to get a little bit sick of working all the time, but i still enjoy my job enough that i'm happy. doing nothing/driving around for tips at rosesubs sure as hell is a lot better than washing dishes at my last 2 jobs.


man i have a lot more shit to write about than i thought. this is like therapy

current plans:

- step 1: get a HOUSE with allan and swiss or jimmy and whoever. fuck apartments. but i really need to start doing everything for myself. living without my parents seems good for that. also its even more awkward at home now that they think i'm suicidal.

- step 2: sign up for some random classes at UW Waukesha (this is what one of my friends really thinks i should do) OR if i actually end up getting a place i think i'd like to take this semester off and get a better paying job to help support/ensure that i can support myself. in which case i'd like to try 3rd shift stocking. i would still go back to school spring semester. motivation: to stay on my parents' health insurance. also i really do miss school... in a weird way. and i know it's going to be important to have an education... i just need to figure out what the fuck i want to study. then maybe i can get my shit together and transfer to a good school like madison. maybe i should just go into software engineering/programming. i dont know. i'm very glad UW Waukesha isn't too expensive

i doubt anyone looks as livejournal updates anymore but i'm bored tonight and i think i can make a more interesting entry than usual.

i'll start this off by saying washing dishes sucks. it's the worst job anyone can ever have. here's why...

for the last 2 days (friday and saturday) i've been in a small kitchen/dishroom for about 12 hours a day (12pm to 12am) scrubbing pans and touching super hot (scalding) water. also for the last 2 days my big toes have been COMPLETELY NUMB on the side that rubs against my shoes which is a scary feeling! i should (and i think i will) quit but i'm scared to ask how to give my 2 weeks notice because almost everyone there is really nice. *edit* i just noticed how whiny this sounds but a lot of other stuff sucks about my work i haven't included and i can tell you right now that, without a doubt, working anywhere else would be MUCH easier for the same amount of pay even

OH I ALMOST FORGOT! besides my toes being numb, another even worse thing is that i have cut up hands. this wouldn't be too bad except most of my cuts are right on the crease where my fingers bend so that it hurts to bend them!! in the morning when i wake up i feel like i'm going to die of hand-pain.

another weird thing that's been going on is that while i'm at work the strangest songs come into my head. i cant think of any examples but i remember they were embaressing things like cheesy theme songs and stuff that would disgust me when i realized what they were. maybe it's my brain's way of coping with having to wash dishes.

is gonna be me if i dont quit



other than being in extreme pain i've been listening to a lot of bjork lately. and i mean a lot. i'm worried i'm going to become her stalker but i've come to terms with it so don't be surprised when i become creepy.

a final news item is that i'm happy the reality show hell's kitchen is back and there's a new sweaty cast member to sweat in the food. summer tv is amazing (new reno 911 soon!)

michelle, megan and others. we have to go see the exorcism of emily rose

september 7th i think PS THAT'S WEDNESDAY!

1 - french 5
2 - orchestra
3 - ap english
4 - physics (who is tricia buschke)
5 - fund/prgmng (foley) / econ (LEHMANN AKA NOT MILLARD!)
6 - study hall
7 - precalc/trig (who is kent kumlien)
8 - decathalon study hall

FUCK MYSPACE

I THOUGHT ABOUT MYSPACE AND IT REALLY GOT ME DOWN
-fb

THANK YOU.

someone tell me... i have balke 4th hour gym

do i have an exam?
if so, what do i have to do?

it's been forever since a real update...

i've realized i have a ride obsession, thrill or not. it's not even like i have the opportunity to go on any ever; i've just constantly thinking about them these last few weeks. i dont think anything since then has topped the fair with michelle, steve, megan, megan and eric.



School:
i never thought i'd say thank god for orchestra but disney world trip = trill ride fix. too bad i have to wait until february. might not even happen if i dont survive going back to school. to be a good student i'm going to have to do tons of shit in the next few days:

-book report (haven't read the book, ty booknotes)
-take home poetry quiz (MUCH harder than expected)
-make up a poetry test i missed (almost everyone failed it)
-WRITE A POEM (i'm very seriously considering just not doing this, i mean i have a B right now)
-2 to 3 page volunteer-work related essay (i didn't go to a mandatory service day for confirmation)

i think i'm mainly worried about the book report. it's due the day after i go back to school. i'm just glad stein is the best teacher ever; he said to just give him the take home quiz "whenever i finish it." and from what i've learned so far he's not kidding about that. first semester i turned in the first assignment of the year on the last day of the quarter. he took it for full credit. i could go on and on about why stein is the greatest teacher i've ever had, no not just because of homework, but i don't think i will.

also regarding english i'm officially going to be taking jonas again next semester. i dont know why but i'm already very worried about having to read 2 books each quarter (2 honors english classes.) and i'm also worried about the roaring 20's speech jonas assigns, i just hate speeches. however, i'm REALLY looking forward to reading as i lay dying again.

Christmas:
i dont think i've ever recieved this many hours of entertainment for christmas. here's an outline:

-PS2 slimline... yeah this thing is SLIM. i did not expect it to be the same size as the controller.
-Final Fantasy X: Easily 40 hours of entertainment
-Final Fantasy X-2: Probably more than 40 hours
-Feel the Magic (DS): I love this game, although only fun for short periods of time.
-Simpsons Seasons 3 and 5: Wow. together this is like 48 episodes. I'll watch each at least twice (once with, once without commentary)
-Metroid Prime 2: Great so far; haven't had time to play much yet.
-PS1 memory card: I've had my brother's mod-chipped ps1 for years and i finally now have a memory card. this will give me about... i'd say at least 100 hours of entertainment (ff5, 7, 8 and 9)

what sucks though is the guilt experienced from ignoring english assignments and playing final fantasy 10.

also, my dad decided to purchase digital cable with a dvr. which i've realized IS tivo basically. so now when i'm bored i can just look at shows i set to record. this is so amazing to me (i can sleep through adult swim but watch it the next day, etc...)


so to sum up: i'm looking forward to new year's eve at megan's, not homework.

what's lame:

- i'm looking forward to friday's in-school party
- i have a project due and 2 tests tomorrow
- i have an orchestra concert later tonight

but:

- all next week = no school
- ds comes out 21st

Hey, don't worry, Mario is much more than a animated character that must rely on his Main-Man Yoshi. Yeah, Yoshi is not a man, but the point is clear. Girls is not my reason for living. Being well-known or liked is also not my reason. Having people like me, or being respected or protecting my reputation, integrity, or image is also not my reason. My decipled reason, based by my own reasoning, is to glorify God. This is just here to remind myself. I can't expect anyone to believe anything I say. I can't convince anyone. I can only watch out for myself. For life is not a race and neither should i worry or coff or gossip or remorse in reply or in echo of how people are better or worser than me........ Well as for Mario, he is probably better off with a pie in his face then to get Toadstool, the queen of the Mushroom land, or maybe he can get take some exercizing classes from his brother.

today was so awesome academically

french thing where she graded us on speaking french with our friends all hour went fine.
english speech went perfect. i covered everything and it was supposed to be between 3 and 3.5 minutes. mine ended up being 3.25 aka perfect especially considering i wrote my notecards during study hall. and algebra i'm positive i got 100% on the test.

socially, not so good
i think someone's getting pretty sick of me.

other than that i have pizza rolls and no school for 4 days.
i need to see the grudge.

wtf is this shit

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i got a broken face
uh huh
uh huh
uh huh uh huh

i got my hair cut y'all

( guess what i ordered )

TONIGHT I ATE A PASTY

BLING SUCKS

I'M STILL HUNGRY

I DONT LIKE THIS ROOM

alright so

i'm updating
i'm just gonna type whatevs

last night i fell asleep with the grossest throat ever.
i woke up and hour and a half later with an even grosser throat... you know when you swallow but you can't feel the spit go down because your throat's inflamed/coated with phlegm? yeah.
so half-asleep i hoped it would stay bad and i wouldn't have to go to school in the morning.
so i woke up the next morning and i felt sick... but better. so i went to school.

so school sucked... michelle didn't want to go to speech... i didn't want to go to algebra. so basically i got to talk to her for awhile and see sarah's cell phone. now i need a code 9 slip so i dont get a detention.

i got home... my french teacher left a message about not turning in enough homework...
umm. i should have checked the answering machine before my parents got home.
anyway..

I JUST REALIZED NEW RENO IN 1:30.
YESSSS

AND I'M ON THE PHONE WHILE TYPING THIS AND I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THE PERSON I'M TALKING TO SAID FOR THE LAST 5 MINUTES AND HE'S STILL TALKING. I THINK I'VE BEEN SAYING "YEAH" "HMM" AND "HEH" A LOT TO HIM

ok and i guess my parents think something's up with me because i didn't finish 3 french assignments... "are you just lazy? are you depressed?"

i'm looking forward to sleep.
but not school.

I THINK I'M FINALLY SEEING EXORCIST TOMORROW


Like i've said, i know it's gonna suck but i dont care

oh yeah and i still haven't gone to my locker. who knows if my books and lock are still there. or what my combination is

you have no idea how badly i want to stop school from coming

other than that. tomorrow = last day of summer.
i bet my life i wont have any plans.

i think i'll try to do everything i never got around to this summer. basically just watch a ton of movies.

so i figure maybe if the first day sucks enough considering i have behind the wheel and so on, i'll just go jump in the ocean.